four letter words

you know, i've been sitting here contemplating my life, and i realized something


words are completely and utterly useless in trying to express feelings,


i mean, i consider myself to be mildly articulate yet when it comes to describing emotions i feel at times there simply arent the right words, putting a word to a feeling serves only to water it down and create something that can be misused

i mean, what i fell makes me feel so many ways, i feel joy, happiness, even anger and sorrow at times, i mean i dont know why its so complicated, and yet it is


always i have been the reclusive one, that never told anybody how i truly felt about anything, nor has anybody bothered to ask, and once again i want to just say fuck it and be selfish, not care how anybody else felt, but this is based on how someone else feels, and i just cant be that way.



well, i've spilled my thoughts, and the drops have collected on this entry, yet theres still so much more to say, but once again i am taken back to the fulility of words, and to say that they are pointless merely serves to point out what is as obvious as the sun being in the sky.


-Steve